Understand

You don't understand all this suffering

and pain, this heavy burden,

the pitted feelings I feel. 

You don't understand that I have wings

that will let me soar and be free,

but I'm shackled to the ground.

You try to cut them free

by reading books and

watching movies, learning all you can.

You make it seem so easy, because you don't

understand. 

I know you do this because you care

and I do appreciate it.

But the only way that you could

understand is if you are one of us

who had been blessed with this OCD.

Sometimes I don't even understand

why God made this and how

it really is a blessing,

But I know God does not make

mistakes. 

You won't understand that when

I cut one loop off the chain,

I rise a little higher

towards hope and determination.

I feel this is an unending fight,

that can be overcome at times.

This in a way is making me stronger.

Maybe this will help you

understand me a little better.

But you will never truly

understand.

(written by teen with OCD)

 

From Lori Riddle-Walker Web site
Copyright 2004